what a way to end it

he told me that he never stopped loving me. then we kissed and hung out and had sex the next morning and everything was back to normal. 

then the next day he said he didn’t mean that and that he was just confused. but it wasnt about any other girl; he wouldnt make out with anyone else because he has respect for me. 

the next day he made out with some girl at a bar named christina who he had been texting a lot beforehand. christina has a boyfriend who is about 5 times brandon’s size. 

if this doesnt help me move on, nothing will. 

im giving myself this week to be sad. next week i will be fine. 

i had the weekend to get belligerent and mad, now im in the sad phase. 

i will move on. i will be fine. i will keep telling myself that until it is true.